I dont hate you. I pity you. It is all so clear to me now. The truth hurts. And the truth is that you are living a lie. You will never be happy because your lives revolve around drama and attention and you will never let it all go so that you can be happy. Do you not see that everyone that loves you ends up leaving you? I am sure that it is easier to think that there is something wrong with everyone except for you. You prey on week people preferrably guys to do and say exactly what you want. You are a hypocrite. You see everyones flaws but you never see your own. You judge people knowing that you are guilty of the same thing. There is nothing that I would say behind your back that I wouldnt say to your face. You are fake. You gossip more then anyone I know. You pretend to be the friend when you are really the enemy. I almost believed you. There for awhile. But I always had this feeling that something was wrong with you. Something is wrong with both of you. You are both exactly the same. I never let you in for that reason. That is why nothing you say can hurt me. All that you ever say is out of spite anyway. That only ends up hurting you. I am not in anyway saying that I am perfect. I know I am not. I have done my fair share of sin. The difference between us is that I wont judge people for what they do, no matter how bad it is. I am not God. I have no place to judge them. You arent God either. I will pray for you and you can not tell me that my prayers will go unanswered because I know that God listens to the good hearted. I dont wish bad on either of you. I believe that people can change. I wish you both the best in life.

Wow. It has been forever! I dont think that anybody even reads this, but here goes......I am now living in Atlanta Georgia. I love it for the most part. The most part is because I HATE the traffic! Im living with my boyfriend right now until february and then I am going to get an apartment with his sister. I cant wait! I had a job the day after I got here. I work in this high class restaurant in a rich city. (its $45.50 per person to eat here not including drinks, tax, and tip!) I love it! I do secretary work and pay roll. Really, I do about two hours of work a day and then just wait for the phone to ring. I play on the internet in between. I work mon-fri from 9am-5pm. I am taking a semester off of school, but am starting back in the fall. I go to night school so its not going to mess with my job. My boss said that when I have homework, I can do it up here. I dont mind doing homework for $12 an hour! I miss Texas, but not very much. I needed to start over. My boyfriend is wonderful. I am so happy to finally be with him. It was worth the wait! I dont have any friends yet. Just the people I work with (3 guys) and my boyfriends friends that dont even count. So, I need some girl friends! Know any?

I hope that everyone is doing well! You can write me if you want, I get terribly bored at work! Let me know what is going on. SMILE! Love ya, Nessa   

I dont think that anybody is even on here any more. Well, for anyone that is, I will give you an update. I am great. In fact beyond great. I have the best boyfriend in the world. I am telling you that I am going to marry that boy. I am moving to Atlanta after Christmas. I have been in a long distance relationship since February, and we are still going strong. That is hard work! My 21st birthday is coming up. That is just crazy to me. I will have my Associates Degree in December. I feel so grown up! It is a strange feeling. Like I know that God is going to take care of me. I am happy.

A scary thing happened to me yesterday though. But, God saved me. I have a question, if anyone reads this, Do you believe in ghosts or spirits?

Thank you.